its been awhile

so i haven't written since the end of last semester. i did a good job on that promise to myself to try and write everyday, didn't i? well, senior year is going well. i'm a senior resident assistant now in bill of rights (ya bill of righteous chicks!) and i love it!! my staff is amazing, my residents are the greatest...its fantastic. this semester brought a lot of responsibilities and hardships, but i'm getting through them. I'm trying for dean's list again; we'll see how that goes...

[why am i watching the military channel?]


i was thinking today how much i miss my grandfather, and how much family means to me. although sometimes it didn't seem like it. i love my family. and i can't wait to start my own...


thats it for now. i know, weak huh? o well, i'll figure it all out and hopefully will be better at writing later.


peace out cub scouts.

~ker~

wow. junior year. down the drain...

i was looking at a friend from high school's profile, announcing where she was going to live her SENIOR YEAR of college, and i was like WHOA hold up. Seniors? I can remember so clearly picking out my outfit for the first day of orientation at high school. Mind you, I have long since burned those cloths cause I really wish I couldn't remember that outfit. I can remember growing away and to people, I can remember how complicated it all seemed, and how easy it would be now...I remember "love" and death and football games and boats and announcements and studying for AP Chem killer tests.....the cast parties, the sleep-overs, the boys, the girls, the proms, the trips, the dramas....


high school.


what a frickin' riot.


and then, there's college. you have this idea in your head of what you are going to be like "at the end of the tunnel" as a wise man once said (right alexis?). but am i that person? can i still be that person at the end of next year? i can think of where i want to be in five years, and if i want kids, and that i want to be married to munger....but how do i get there? what are the steps to get there?


two years ago, this time freshman year, i never would have thought i would be sitting here, at hofstra, as an RA, still with the most amazing boyfriend ever, on the dean's list and happy. never thought about it. never considered it an option. who knew that happiness was going to happen and find me on long island? it must have gotten lost somewhere between vermont and long island...maybe got stuck on the verranzano w/out the toll....whatever the cause, i'm okay graduating from hofstra. hopefully, i'll still feel the same when i graduate NEXT FRICKIN' MAY. but where will i be in june 2006?




on a different note, 21 is awesome, and my birthday was AMAZING. flowers from boyfriends rock. your best friends mom taking you out to dinner. your best friend taking you out todrinks. people buying you drinks at the bar....21 was awesome. i got to see everyone that week and celebrate it the right way. the party at home rocked, too, although to be honest, i dont remember the whole night, but bits and pieces come back now and then.


peace out. going to build a mud hut in the woods with tmack so i don't have to think anymore.




ker

ps

ps - shot out to baby sting. i'll be waiting forever if i have to....


They painted up your secrets
With the lies they told to you
And the least they ever gave you
Was the most you ever knew
And I wonder where these dreams go
When the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screaming
No one's listening anyway
Your voice is small and fading
And you hide in here unknown
And your mother loves your father
'Cause she's got nowhere to go
And she wonders where these dreams go
'Cause the world got in her way
What's the point in ever trying
Nothing's changing anyway
They press their lips against you
And you love the lies they say
And I tried so hard to reach you
But you're falling anyway
And you know I see right through you
'Cause the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screamin'
You're not listening anyway


i think we'll need a good drive around town and a scream when it comes time...don't you?

;)

-ktdivabear aka a turtle?

happy frog.

i am a happy frog ;)


sometimes, you just have to jump on board and let life take you for a ride. the good with the bad. the better with the worse. the lovers with the haters.


i like my ride...



blast it from the past...

There was a man lived in the moon, in the moon, in the moon. There was a man lived in the moon and his name was Aikendrum.
And he played upon a ladle, a ladle, a ladle. He played upon a ladle and his name was Aikendrum.
And his hair was made of spaghetti spaghetti spaghetti. His hair was made of spaghetti and his name was Aikendrum.
And his eyes were made of meatballs meatbalss meatballs. His eyes were made of meatballs and his name was Aikendrum.
And he played upon a ladle, a ladle, a ladle. He played upon a ladle and his name was Aikendrum.
And his nose was made of cheese cheese cheese. His nose was made of cheese and his name was Aikendrum.
And his mouth was made of pizza pizza pizza. His mouth was made of pizza and his name was Aikendrum.
And he played upon a ladle, a ladle, a ladle. He played upon a ladel and his name was Aikendrum.
There was a man lived in the moon, in the moon, in the moon. There was a man lived in the moon and his name was Aikendrum.


mjm's girlie :)

i know...

i know why i've been so worried. i have a really good feeling that everything will be ok...but will it? how can i be so sure? i really can't doubt myself now.....


29 days til LA.....


i just need to fly away.



~moi~

worry...

have you ever been worried? about nothing in particular, but just in your gut? all your senses tell you you should be worried, but nothing has happened? i just feel so....worried and concerned and...surprisingly sad. discouraged. i just mad cleaned my entire room. i'm talking moving furniture to vaccum under it. crazy. just cause i didn't want to let myself think. i was in the city last night with the dancers, and i was concerned the whole time. maybe concerned isn't the right word....aware. i was aware of everything. i felt so old, and...responsible. it was very strange.


i'm so ready for the next step....

and it will be nice to go home.



i miss you.

let it snow....

so its snowing a lot. i guess if you are anywhere in the country at the moment its snowing. hehe. i was going to post a picture, but i can't even see out my window. so imagine a bunch of white; that's what it looks like.

i'm **trying** to be productive, but i'm not very motivated. i worked at building check-ins this morning, and was motivated when i came back, but then i had to work selling merch at the basketball game, and since i've been back, i've made a list of all the things i need to get done. and i really do need to do them now, because i don't really have any other time to do them. perhaps when i'm done writing....


i haven't written in awhile, which is normally my story. i had the best new year's i have ever had. it was so much fun! thanks tam for just rocking my world ;)

break was short this year, but at least i got to go home....


I'm going to LA in March! I'm so excited. I'm going with the national broadcasting society to their national convention, and I can not wait! it will be a ton of fun!


anyway, not to much for me. an old friend who i haven't talked to in the longest time contacted me the other day, and i couldnt be happier. keep in touch, babe (you know who you are) and it will all work out. i'm here ;)



ok, i'm peacing out. k.i.t.




k.t.