pet peeve: ** when boys (even just ones that are supposedly your friends) who say they will call don't, or say that they care and don't show it....if you don't want to call me, then don't tell me you will. if you don't want to hang out with me, don't ask me to meet you in the middle of the night. if you don't want to be my friend, after all the bullshit you've put me through....then don't try and pretend that you are. its time to cut the bullshit and grow up and just frickin realize i'm not a child anymore. and i just want to be your friend. so either grow a set and deal, or walk away and don't look back...**








A MAN IS A = boy whom happened to find a woman to take care of him. [NOT his mother.] .....this is something i just came up with...i would say after being awake for 24 hours, thats not bad ;)


and...i'm outtttttt......

<~>ker<~>

thats it.






i quit.

since i'm missing my doomie, i decided to have a post devoted to my one true french love: DUMAS. (this isn't a convo, this is dumas GEMS from convos her and i have had and messages she has left me. cuz i love her. this can be her FAN page!)


doomie242: how you doin my slute?
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doomie242: ...that would be so yay
mainyrhtak: so yay
mainyrhtak: only you woud say so yay
mainyrhtak: lol dumie i love you
doomie242: hehe yea i know my gramma aint too well
doomie242: i love you also, i need to see you during break
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doomie242: yay! whatever floats your boat or finds your lost remote
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doomie242: yes byebye slute I love you too! hang it there katye bear
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doomie242: hey slute
mainyrhtak: hey pet what up
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mainyrhtak: yah its pouring here
doomie242: ewwww, doesnt it stink
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doomie242: see you know what my prob is
doomie242: i need to get my period really bad
doomie242: i am pms'd as much as i possibly could be
mainyrhtak: need?
mainyrhtak: lol
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doomie242: like right now the roomate needs to die
doomie242: shes like THANKS for inviting me to dinner, I'm wanna say maybe i dint want you to go BIATCH
mainyrhtak: LOL
doomie242: yesss
doomie242: i just made her put on headphones, shall i blast the music LOUDER
doomie242: wowww im being a bitch
mainyrhtak: doomie i love
mainyrhtak: YOU
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doomie242: pleasant dreams
doomie242: SLUTE
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doomie242: byebye roBARE NAKEd
doomie242: love yas
mainyrhtak: lol
mainyrhtak: u 2
doomie242: haha barenaked i love it
doomie242: im lookiin it up in french
mainyrhtak: lol
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doomie242: wow you are so so hot
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doomie242: slute
**this was a message left by itself when i was away about, o, let's say 100 times!**
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mainyrhtak: The Rut won't know what hit it when Yackie and Dumas are reunited!!! :-)
mainyrhtak: is it gonna blow up??
doomie242: yup if i have a big enough pet it will
mainyrhtak: LOL
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doomie242: thats right, theres enough of me to go around for everyone
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doomie242: duh
doomie242: come on now
doomie242: you've been smokin too much
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doomie242: firme la bouch
mainyrhtak: fermez la bouche!
doomie242: yea that too
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doomie242: then i was like wait a tick...
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doomie242: why the f are you takin french 4
**only dumas would refrain from using profanity in an im...so she can save it all up and use it all when she is WITH you!**
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doomie242: im tired
doomie242: im cranky
doomie242: and im sick of guys
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mainyrhtak: not always a good thing laura
doomie242: ok whats this horrible name u callin me
mainyrhtak: lol
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doomie242: slute love
doomie242: you know how that goes down 8-)
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I love you dumas. and maybe not everyone who reads this will think these GEMS are funny, because they are totally taken out of context, and maybe they wont understand our version of french, but i love you doomie. miss you. can't wait to see you!! and remember, babe, "everything everything will be alright - everything everything will be just fine."

-ker-

in the words of caitlin reid: "in blogworld I've been kind of sucking at life, and there's quite a bit to catch up on." but, dispite all the wonderful, confusing, frustarating, annoying, joyful, crazy, amazing events of the past week/last few days...i've decided to just post a poem i wrote almost a year ago at one of my favorite gettaways and one of the most inspiring places i have ever been.


Insomnia

Pressure
Like a shaken warm soda builds up inside.
I can't manifest myself in the form that you wearn for me to bne.
I am not a chameleon,
Changing at your command.
The words don't filter down for me at 3 am
While the rain beats down
As they do for you,
On you
You made me feel as vulnerable
Naive
Loved


{The way you make me feel}


The bed is warm with your slumber
Sleep lurks above my insomnia
Like a carrot dangled in front of a horse
Always just
Out of

{Reach}

The ticking of the clock drives me insane
And you,
With your body weight heavy on the mattress
As its springs cry out beneath you --


Pressure
Screeching as a kettle ready for tea
I wish I could scream so the sandman knew I was ready
Ready for that peace
The relief that is my nostrils flaring with snores in the night.

The bed is comfy
- Hard,
Like you
My pillow sends icy chills up my
Spine
And down the covers
You say

That's the way a pillow SHOULD be.



My mind wanders away from my control
Off into a land that is
- You
Off into the hills and valleys of your

- Soft body
Pining for soemthing more than is already there
Attempting to
- Discover
As Columbus
Attempting to
- Boldly go where no woman has gone before
Venturing out into this new land
This
New man
This man that is mine
. . . Mine
. . . Mind
- My mind is adjusted back and I've been dreaming

Damn

You haunt me in the way that it makes me feel good
Real good

Good enough to eat you
And lick my lips
And then - lick yours

Member that tiume
When I kissed you
That, first time
When we were alone
And you quivered
And . . . I smiled
You shook
with happiness
As a little boy with his new
-Bat
And I am the catcher across the field
Ball in hand ready for some
- Play


I can't escape you
But, I don't wait to
All I want to do is sleep

And then I am awakened by
Morning
Sunshine waskes the grime of night off my gentle body,.
The sweet aroma of breakfast engulfs
My once flaring nostrils . . .


You appear



I smile


My nights are always restless with this

In
-Som-
Nia

But the sight of you
First thing in the morning
Makes me feel well rested
Alive - awake
You arms sweep down and surround me
Trapping me in a place I'm happy to be

Hold on tight
Sweet one
The nights are long
The days are short
But our love will outlast
My
In-Som-Nia






And thats all folks.



-ker-