i found myself last night. it was the oddest thing. i was walking over the unispan and it was so quiet. i got up right to the middle and stopped. i just stopped. i started to cry. the quietness reminded me of home, of vermont, new england. i became me, the me i knew before i came to college...the me i haven't seen in awhile. it felt good. i want to be me again.....it reminded me of this time at the beginning of summer after my senior year, right after graduation. i took a walk because it was such a beautiful evening. it must of been a thrusday around 7 o'clock. i took a walk and it fel so wonderful. i just walked slowly and i took in every minute of everything around me...it was like everything just slowed down and i had more time to see what was going on and what was in my surroundings. it was such a nice night and i'll always remember it....i'll remember the buttercups.....


(this is a post from wed nov 12)