rereading my entry from oct 7, it looks like my emotions got carried away and my point was lost somewhere between the lines.

my point is this:

i miss my best friend. every friendship goes through ups and downs, and i understand that. but i was really hurt by the email i received in june from my best friend and am obviously still hurting. i can't take back things i've said or done, and we can't overlook anything ANYONE said or did in the past. it's behind us and it can't be changed. we can learn from our mistakes and move on. i miss the friendship that rachel and i had, i even miss the friendship gregg and i once had. we always knew how to have fun, even when we weren't doing anything. you vt people know that it is sometimes hard to find something exciting to do, but we always had our own "adventures", didn't we?

my point on oct 7 was simply that i missed her....we all make mistakes...

i don't know if we could ever be friends again. nothing would ever be the same. the one time i saw you this summer, i wanted to tell you everything that was bottled up inside me, all the song lyrics that made me think of you, the poems i've written....everyone was flabbergasted at the thought of that email....i've written a million letters but never dared to put a stamp on any of them...some apologizing, some upset, some just seeing what was up. a friend to me is someone who is honest and gives there opinion to you, even if it hurts ( right adrianne? ) if you ask, if you complain, if you say something is wrong, we will always be there for you, even if you say it a million times over, never changing a word, and we will always give you advice. friends forgive, and love means never having to say you're sorry.









so why do i hurt so much?














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