i am never going to sleep tonight.

not that the efforts of my day shall be unfufilling. not that the things i did or said or accomplished should be overlooked; because they are full of importance. not that the people i hugged or drove home or ate breakfast with or talked on the phone to weren't worth the time i spent with them. or the six and a half hours i spent trying very hard to make everyone know me . . . hopefully that was worth something.

but i've been up now for 21 hours and i really want to go to bed. i love you all [u know who you are, the above mentioned]

thanks for making this be my home.

thanks for being my comfort zone

thanks for letting me know its ok to be afraid.


its ok to let people know me. and let people back in. you dont know that i learned that from you today. but thanks anyway. even though you don't know it, i still appreciate it.

4 yrs is so much longer than 2 . . .



and a special tribute to bryan and the red group, for all the help they gave me today:


Can't explain all the feelings that you're making me feel
My heart's in over drive and you're behind the steering wheel
Touching you, touching me, touching you cause you're touching me
I believe in a thing called love, just listen to the rhythm of my heart
There's a chance we can make it now
We'll be lookin till the sun goes down
I believe in a thing called love
Ooooooh (huh!)

I wanna kiss you every minute every hour everyday
You got me in a spin but everything is a ok

Touching you, touching me
Touching you cause you're touching me
I believe in a thing called love, just listen to the rhythm of my heart
There's a chance we can make it now
We'll be lookin till the sun goes down
I believe in a thing called love
ooooooh (it's on)

and if i never hear that lovely, endearing song again, it will be all
too
soon

~ker~

ps - i fell more in love with you mjm. i love you every more each day. i don't know how you do it, but my insides are alway on the floor when you are around. i<3 u.

-girlie-